I’ve recently felt that familiar nagging feeling that the boat of my life is sailing away from the dock and I’m not on it. Or if I am, I’m somewhere in the hold doing the grunt job and not on the deck enjoying the view. I know I just don’t know where I’m going right now. I’m doing the To Do list I have and trying to keep up, as we all do, with friends, family, work stuff. But I know it isn’t enough. Where is this all taking me? I want more, but more what?
What drains you? What nourishes you? What simple questions, but how telling. I was grabbing a few moments of reading of Turning the Mind into an Ally by Sakyong Mipham and in the appendix with instructions on setting up a meditation practice were those words.
“Beginning mediation practice is an excellent opportunity to contemplate how we spend our time. How much of what we do is important and truly necessary? One of the obstacles to meditation is being pulled in too many directions. What drains us; what nourishes us? Are there activities we can postpone or eliminate?”
How can I decide what I want more of in my life, or where I want to be in 3 months, 6 months or 5 years unless I can answer those two questions. Knowing what feeds me and what empties me is a sign about where in my life I am fulfilled and want to invest more energy to get more energy. Knowing what doesn’t serve me helps me open up guilt free time for what matters to me inn my life.
It’s the kind of homework I give my clients and I’m giving it to myself. Now is the time to take stock of what drains me and what nourishes me so I can choose where I want to put my energies. What drains me? Living in the dark hold of my life’s’ ship with no idea where I’m going.